Her Loss Was A Shock
I was awakened by my mobile ring at 4am last night. It seldom rings at an inconvenient time of the night so I ignored and thought it was probably my nieces who forgot the time difference. Since I promised to chat with them anytime this week. After a couple of minutes I heard my sms signal tone so I got up with my eyes half-shut while groping for my mobile phone in the dark. It was from my sister and the message struck my eyes and reflects my inner consciousness. Then I found myself completely awake when tears rolled down my cheeks. My favorite Aunty passed away without warning. Leukemia. Admitted to the hospital last Saturday and died last night. Just three days after she was diagnosed with the disease. Who would expect her early demise? The chemotherapy was set. But what went wrong? Why her?
My voice was trembling when I rang my sister and the words I could only utter were, “how did it happen?” and “why?”
I always fear this kind of news. Being far away from them would only make grieving and mourning difficult. The acceptance of the fact and its process takes longer than when everybody’s around. I am deeply affected and feel the need to talk to anyone else. Aside from hubby, I talked to some close work colleagues today about it. Somehow, it eased the pain but not enough to deal with grief.
The thought of not seeing her again when I visit Davao is an undeniable reality, formidable to accept. But until then, I cherish her memory being the most wonderful Aunt in the world. I mourn for her.
“Gain and loss, birth and death are in the hands of God.”
~ Sri Sathya Sai Baba ~
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Marlene is a teacher by profession holding a degree of Bachelor of Science in Secondary Education. She works as a Mother Language Teacher in Sweden. She is a Filipina married to a Swede. She has been blogging since 2007 and she and her hubby own quite a number of websites. Connect with Marlene on Google+
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My condolence ate marlene, I know this is difficult for you and your family now, but hope everything get well soon.. atleast si papa God di nya na pinatagal paghihirap ng auntie nyo, kasi alam naman natin how cancer kills a person everyday.. buhay ka pa, pinapatay ka na nga sakit..
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Jen, maraming salamat. Yun nga din ang sabi ni hubby, na mabuti na rin at hindi mahaba ang paghihirap ni Aunty. Buhay nga naman ng tao, oo…
My condolences to you and your family. It’s never easy to lose someone but life goes on
Your aunt is in a better place now.
Thank you, Nick. I’m really trying to do the usual things I’m doing here cos I can’t do much otherwise. Though it’s hard for now.
I can relate. My Aunt passed away last month. The best Aunt I had. Condolence Len.
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Thank you, Joy. Namatayan ka rin pala ng Aunt. Ang hirap lang kasi dahil malayo tayo sa atin. Nagiging mabigat ang pagluluksa.
May you have a blessed Holy Week Len.
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“Gain and loss, birth and death are in the hands of God.”
this is the fact of every thing
God have every thing
Shihab, thank you for dropping by.
Somehow, this quote helps me to accept the death of my Aunt better (gradually).
My condolences. Your aunt will forever be in your heart and she is never far.
BK, thank you for your kind words. Yes, she will be forever in my heart and her memory lingers indefinitely.
SAD TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR AUNT. I ALWAYS FEAR TO ATTEND THESE ODD TIME CALLS. MAY HER SOUL REST IN PEACE.
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Shanker, thank you. This is indeed so odd a time cos I’m far from my family and when things like this happens, I feel hopeless.
Condolence…My prayer goes out to you and your family
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Chinky, thank you, dear. I’m lighting candles for all the prayers said.
It’s sad to hear about what happened to your Aunt. Condolence… ganyan talaga ang buhay, minsan parang ang hirap tanggapin ano but life has to move on.
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Amor, thank you. Oo nga, nabigla talaga ako’t hanggang ngayon di ko pa matanggap na mangyari ito sa fave aunt ko. Pero pinipilit ko ring mag-move-on kahit papano.
Jeg Kondolere. My condolences it must really be shocking when you don’t expect it unlike my lola who died at 89 or 90 that in our hearts we know it will come just a matter of time.
But like the rest of us who live far away makes it even harder but I will pray for her and your family.
Against my condolence.
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Ana, tack så mycket. Oo, nashock talaga ako kasi di ko alam na naospital pala siya tapos bigla na lang news wala na siya.
My condolences to you and your family.