Going back to work after a long break or vacation is something I don’t look forward to, at least not now when this winter coldness and darkness pulls me back to slumber in the early morning hours. I completely feel that the party is over and now it’s time to face seriously the reality again. Ugh! My dilemma is whether to call in sick and pretend and enjoy extra day of laziness, or force myself to work and disguise tiredness with a lousy smile. This is a plaguing situation. This New Year is not giving me any change. What has changed is just the number of years, but the days are just the same. Why can’t we have a different situation when New Year comes, like waking up the next day in a satin sleepwear and breakfast in bed has just being served by a uniformed maid, lol! Keep dreaming!
But guess which options did I take today. Awakened by the music in my alarm clock, I got up and went to work instead. Forget about the fantasies and dreams, this is what my life is, my reality. Anyhow, it feels good to start the year right. This is the time I need to be strong. To fight the dilemma is not easy however. But the will to do what’s right is the best weapon I’ve had.
I slept and dreamed that life was beauty. I woke and found that life was duty.
~ Ellen Sturgis Hooper